A few of my favorite things...

i am extraordinarily happy today.

I'm listening to "Hey Soul Sister" by Train, and thinking of warm beaches, wind in my hair, and the way boys smell.

I love that smell.

Soon I will be in the arms of angels. I will see my family.

I have chips and salsa,

I hear a lovely desert rain,

I have a that smile I can't erase,

I have chocolate in my tummy, and

a loving Heavenly Father who told me yesterday that He loves me, is proud of me, and to hang in there...it's gonna be more awesome than even I can imagine (and I can imagine a lot...).

ALSO, I got my Take That cd. FInallY.

Many things make me happy. I love happy.

I reached a conclusion about art and music. Maybe it's too fluid. I'm working on it. Essentially, I think that if it speaks to you, then sure... it's art. It's hard to define something that is an emotional connection. That's what makes art interesting. I am actually fond of Jackson Pollacks. Even though he just threw paint at a canvas.

I've seen reproductions, and I've seen other people do what he did. Very few of them speak to me.

I like dandelions, country music, and the golden mean. I like talks by Holland, polka dots, and a thick sauce.

just sayin'.

Don't you worry 'bout a thing

Today my best friend told me that she's worried she might marry someone she doesn't love.

I nearly choked on the irony.

She's worried she'll settle out of desperation. I've accepted it as His plan for me.

But don't worry. I don't believe in being condemned to live a loveless life.

"Have I not commanded thee? Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."

-Joshua 1:9

I think this has real merit.

1. Denial.

2. Anger.

3. Bargaining.

4. Depression.

5. Acceptance.

One year for each! hooah, 5 years of the ridiculous cycle.

I hear a lot of people trying to ignore what they feel. shove it away, not think about it, and pretend it doesn't exist. Why? It's like they're trying to skip the last step... which we can all agree is the most essential.

It makes me think of the line from "French Kiss" with Meg Ryan and Kevin Kline. Meg's character is talking to her ex-fiancé, and about how guilty he feels. She begins to tell him that it's OK, she's moved on... then quickly switches gears.

"You know what? Feel guilty. Soak in it till you're fingers get all pruney."

I love that line.

Every new feeling adds a dimension of humanity that is interesting and worthy of investigation.

So what do i feel? what am I soaking in till my fingers get all pruney?

Acceptance.

Because i'm done being mad, sad, in pain, and drained. I'm ready to explore the last step.

"We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us."
Joseph Campbell

It's inspiration

President Uchtdorf's talk from Priesthood session is inspired.

That is all I have to say.

singin and dancin and all that joyous stuff

guys, the music is back.

the MUSIC is BACK.

this is a big deal. s'riously.

it's back in the form of something smaller than my hand, and golden yellow. love.

while i would like to be esoteric, mysterious, and... ok, whatever, I really don't want to be like that. Simply put, my ipod broke last week, and I finally decided that I had enough in my budget to buy a refurbished one from apple.

this past week - sans music - has been interesting (being with my own thoughts...) but i really love music.

guys, i love music. so so much.

and it's BACK!

hoo-ah.

what's your favorite song? I'm really diggin "Timshel" by Mumford and Sons and "the devil went down to Georgia"..... good stuff.

Wooooooooorrrrdddsss

Polonius: What do you read, my lord?

Hamlet: Words, words, words.



Hamlet: Alas, poor Yorick! I knew him, Horatio.

A righteous example

Go read Alma 61.

Pahoran is my hero right now.

vs. 14: "...let us resist evil...let us resist with our swords." Fight satan with action. do not just passively ward him off. be actively striving to always resist him. because he is always trying to tear you down.

vs. 15: "therefore, come unto me speedily with a few of your men..." ask for help in times of trial. it doesn't mean you are less of a person. take refuge in the angels God has sent you to help. You will be someone else's angel someday, but if you need help now, seek it.

Seriously, Pahoran. You are my hero. I so needed you today.